【第一百四十九章】
明明是自己提出来的，事到如今又是自已先反悔的。为什么啊，明明叫人准备好可是自己先退后一步不去接受。进退两难啊，要我如何诀择？
谁来告诉我？该如何啊……
为什么……明明会弄简单啊……
我不过是在等着那句久违的分手啊…！
要我如何？又能如何？
我接受不了突如其来的意外，我也无法进入这种变成这样的感情。我没办法迈出第一步。害怕，恐惧，抗拒，无能为力，哑口无言，即便是接通了，我也不知道要说什么，或许成了一种病……
明明最纯粹的感情也会有裂缝出现。该如何啊，我不理解，更不知道该如何做……
我很少体会这样的感情，抵触，不想被触碰……
我想要救赎，可我不敢接受。我想要你那点点温暖，温存即可。
It was obviously put forward by myself, but now I went back on my promise first.
Why, I told people to be ready, but I took a step back and refused to accept it. In a dilemma, how can I choose?
Who's going to tell me? What should we do.
Why. It's easy to make it easy.
I'm just waiting for the breakup I haven't seen for a long time. Aah! aah!
What do you want me to do? So what?
I can't accept sudden accidents, and I can't get into this kind of relationship. I can't take the first step.
Fear, fear, resistance, helplessness, speechlessness, even if connected,
I do not know what to say, may have become a disease.
Obviously, there will be cracks in the purest feelings. What should I do? I don't understand, let alone how to do it.
I seldom experience such feelings, conflict, do not want to be touched.
I want redemption, but I dare not accept it. I want a little bit of warmth from you, just a little bit of warmth.
求求你，给我点时间，让我缓一缓。如果无法适应，我们就到此结束吧。